Monday, May 28, 2007

Okay lah, disillusionment! I'll go google that. How presumptuous, I think, that you thought you would have crossed his mind. And even more, to expect they would endure, when you knew they wouldn't. Apart from being brutally honest, I'd have to say that there's nothing you're not capable of doing (:

Googles

Haha. Oh, you're right. Try not to be unduly worried! On the up, I've been more relaxed than I've ever been. I've actually been able to do things I want to do. Then again, there are so many things I wish I could be doing. A number of things have fuelled my irrational (and quite unhealthy) fear of growing old. Namely, watching ABOUT SCHMIDT (oh-so-depressing) and the ancient Buddhist koan "Youth is wasted on the young" (HAHA OKAY it's not Buddhist, but you would know!). But it's so horribly true, and I've got to stop it from happening. I've got to DO something. Do something other than fritter my youth away. AHHHH FLAMING KETCHUPZXZX! I'm quite calm. I keep wanting to do all these things, but I never seem to be able to muster even the tiniest grain of willpower to get up and do them. I wish I was six again. What happened between then and now? LIFE HAPPENED DAMN IT. GROWING UP HAPPENED, AND ALL THE SHIT THAT COMES ALONG WITH IT :D

Okay, I suppose I'm largely pissed off. With everything, basically. With people whom I understand, people whom I don't have a clue about, people whom I once knew (or thought I knew, at least) but now happen not to know anymore. And, people whom I so desperately want to get to know. Plus, you know what else pisses me off? People who don't observe even basic social etiquette, re-runs of cooking shows, bad chocolate, rusty strings, pseudo-sophistication, old toothbrushes (I like the new and perky ones), soggy anything.

The things I love though? I really appreciate if you've made the effort even when I haven't. Thank you. And I love a good dessert! (Wait, singularly?! DESSERTS :D) Most importantly though, who I love? The people I'm supposed to love (and whom I don't love enough), and the people whom I'm not supposed to love (but do anyway). AND JOHN MAYER, HELLO!!! <333 Or more specifically, his music (: I love all the old skool blues guitarists too! And I've been nursing a newborn crush on new skool bluegrass!!111oneoneonehundredandeleventyone :D :D


After all the jacks are in their boxes
And the clowns have all gone to bed
You can hear happiness staggering on down the street
Footsteps dressed in red
And the wind whispers Mary

- HAHAHAHA.
by @ 8:43 PM