Sunday, April 01, 2007

We can't make a single flea, but we're creating gods by the dozens.
I feel like screaming something at them, but I feel so so sad for her. It's not right. It's not right. Sometimes I think she deserves to be loved more than the others.
She's his, which is why she's still here, even though she shouldn't be.

Where has your power gone, Noelle?

Smoky transigence. Everything dulled by a blanket of slate - that is, my descent into profligacy. (Who am I kidding?) Denigration of conscience, four-lettered profanities, empty bottles (without S.O.S.es in them: Save yourself) from eating too much and sleeping too little, putting Everything in one box and Nothing in another, switching allegiances faster than you can say JackandJillwentupthehilltofetchapailofwater
Godknowswhattheydiduptheretheycamedownwithadaughter in one breath,
pretentious essays that walk around (doing what else?) pretending, entirely one-sided conversations with inanimate objects, when someone makes you hold your breath, when things mean things they never meant before, when you kid yourself, when you don't kid yourself, broad beans that leave your throat dry, letters for people who will never read them, mastering the art of Detection, unfolding the fabric of your needy existence, Voice unravelling like a spool of thread in the limpid water of Knowledge.
All signs of madenssmadnessmadness, lunacy; think of one word then be reminded of another. A synonym is a word you use when you can't spell the word you actually want to use, he says hahaha. An antonym is that to neutralise what was said. (I Hate you vs. I'm Sorry)
What was it I wanted to say again? I forgot.
Let us dissect the meaning of the word 'conscience'. We shall start with the most basic process in the study of semantics and examine the Root, the Origin of the word. Is it French? German? Actually, it is from Latin conscientia, which means to be conscious of. Equipped with this tool that imparts consciousness, then we should be fully aware of what we are doing, and the consequences of our actions. However, this is something that needs to be thrown into question, because even in full lucidity, we claim not to know what we are doing, and we do things for which we later renounce responsibility for. Then it is to do what is right (what is right?). We could also break it up into two parts, con and science.
To con would mean to deceive, to swindle.
Science, though self-explanatory, refers to any system of objective knowledge.
Conscience - the two words used in tandem - could then be construed to mean a deception of objective knowledge, a ruse.
Then, conscience ceases to exist, and a million consciences cannot atone for the outrage of one.

- this one's for you.
by @ 11:42 AM