Thursday, February 08, 2007

This is something I should stop doing to myself.
She was on my side of the road so I crossed so we wouldn't have to avert our eyes so we wouldn't have to walk past each other and pretend we didn't notice the other. Then he walked up behind me and I threw away the leaf I was holding and I think he saw me pluck it. Maybe he thought I was crazy or something (I am).

After school I stayed back and fungo-ed a little (after Maths at 4) and then left at around 545 with the intention of doing some work, but met Rachel and Sharlene and became a Temporary guide! The bus ride home was Long and Lonely. Hot and Crowded. Sometimes I make myself so angry. Yeah? I am cruel to myself. If I ever said it out loud then it would be the end of this obsession because then there would be no more hope.


I thought my period was coming but I guess not. Maybe I'm not very in tune with my body.
You know sometimes you feel everyone who smiles at you is in love with you? Then you want to do it to everyone and see if it has the same effect on others, but the joke is on you. And then sometimes you know exactly how someone feels and you're too selfish to say that you know you know you know they're not alone. And that makes you Aloner. A Loner.
Physical distance is nothing. You're here and you're not.

- no one knows.
by @ 7:52 PM