Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Then he realises it isn't she who keeps changing her mind - flitting from one end to another - but rather he himself who vacillates between the poles of hope and despair.
And I completely understand what it is you do, because I've done it all before and it feels funny and achey to know that maybe you don't give a damn at all and un/intentional heartlessness and all that. When all evidence points to the contrary, my hope will still lie with the improbable.
Today was kind of boring in an academic interest way, although we had the best SIL so far (we've only had 3, I think?). And I suppose I'm being very silly because I really do like reading into things and the WORST part of everything is that I'm usually RIGHT and hey that probably isn't so bad if you think about it really. It's just that it gets to me so easily. I'm fine letting go of things, I'm fine with it and I tell myself that but sometimes it's GLUED to you ljfhaslkdjghaslkjg and you can't turn off how you feel. The game yesterday was okay, and then after that we came back and I sat at the science department until around 6 to get my practical worksheets done so that I'll do well. One step at a time! I don't care if Mr Low comes to read this blog now and again if he feels like it, because honestly no one probably knows what it's all about and no one CARES haha which is the God-honest truth. Admit it, reader. Admit that this blog is a self-centred, exhibitionistic, pretentious piece of crap and that's all it is. I can almost see everyone nodding in assent, phantom heads bobbing up and down. I'm sorry if this appears angsty, because it's not supposed to be, and my explanation would be that it's just the truth and that's all there is to it. I'm probably not the best person to see into myself because it's me putting all this out there, and how the hell would I know what other people are thinking? I don't care what other people think of this, and that is why this blog is just a big white space and I have no tagboard and all you see are my words because that's all I want. And don't get me wrong, this doesn't translate into I-Don't-Care-What-Other-People-Think-Period, because I do care what others think all the time, but this is not one of the times. Go away now! :D Boingboingboing I wonder what is going to happen next with me feeling all dangerousy because I dare to eat guavas and Jamie Pang does not and she isn't boring she's just unadventurous, right Jamie? I'm in 409 and no one's here and I'm waiting for Daddy to come and we'll go home and tomorrow, I'll wake up and be sick and then I'll not go to school! It's so cool and quiet haha except I would like it better if we had the hill view from this class room. You know, like a pale view of the hills. Sucker. Now, paragraphing would really suck. I'm going to study for Chem and actually do something that's not just just passing! I woke up this morning and thought it was Wednesday, and I bemoan that time is passing so slowly! But, you know we were taling about how time flies and stuff, and Yonghui offered up this theory that when you think about last time and you think about now, you kind of cancel out the inbetween in your head so that it seems really short. However, if you factor in all the times you watched TV and slacked in front of the comp and stoned and stuff, well, it really is pretty long actually. Then I said, well, that's a nice way of saying it! Then later on she was doing this maths question, and someone asked her how come she did it so fast or something to that effect, and then I used The Theory on it and somehow it didn't seem right :\ So, that's just a random thought. A Cooler thing would be to talk about how I will use some colour in these posts in future so that I can be more EXPRESSIVE without it being overkill which means I probably won't use much. So, bye. See you soon.
Randomly.
I associate guavas with the colour red, hence the red 'guava'.

- and his goat With tranquil disaffection chews his coat
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