Thursday, November 30, 2006

Ever the optimist, me is. HAHA. Anyway, a couple of things happened yesterday(today). Well, the weirdest thing happened last night/this morning. Ummmmm. Okay how do I say this. I was lying in bed after finishing Teacher Man and feeling really tired. I don't know, maybe there's been an earthquake somewhere in my brain but I haven't talked to her in years, but I suddenly felt compelled to know what Nat was doing. It was REALLY weird, like this funny veryvery strong compulsion to find out. So, anyway, it was past 12am and I was like eh stop this nonsense HAHA because to be honest, I felt really ridiculous that she suddenly popped into my head.
Man, this is so surreal I don't know how to continue.
I wanted to message, and my brain was telling me that it was too random/weird and just plain stupid mainly because it was late and HELLLOOOOO we've not talked in years. But I decided I couldn't sleep if I didn't message her, so I did. HAHA and you know I KNEWWWW in my gut that she was awake in her home (okayyyy freaky I really can't explain how.) even though plenty logic told me it was highly unlikely. Anyway, after I sent out the message I couldn't sleep and then suddenly my phone went beep and the voice in my head went NO WAYYYYY. Anyway, she replied. It was like making extra-terrestrial contact. I don't think there's any need to elaborate on the ummm relatively brief exchange, but after that I felt really WEIRD. Okayyyyy sorry this post isn't very coherent.
Anyway, in primary school there was always this tension between us. HAHA I think I might know why but it's too weird and complicated and everyone thought we hated each other but we didn't I think/hope! Anyway, I don't know if it was just ME but I always thought that we had some kind of psychic thing haha cos we'd say the same things at the EXACT same times on several occasions. Maybe it's weird to me lah, because it never happened with other people. But whatever. I wish we didn't let things get in the way. I don't want to start sounding corny or dramatic, so I'll just stop here. This is like some weird Murakami-lite experience - well, not impossible but highly highly unlikely. Happened anyway.

I used so many 'anyway's. Word of the Day.

We had training with the killer steps today and everything and Yiyan got injured but it's nothing serious why is everyone making a mountain out of a molehill haha it's not that I'm being indifferent or that I don't care but it's really not serious it only looks that way because there're many capillaries in the face and they bleed a lot. Like you see in football matches when they bang heads and they've said it doesn't hurt. It just bleeds a lot. BLAHHHHHH. We have a game tomorrow. Let's squash the guys.










The curse of symmetry is also the curse of the desire for reciprocity. But of course it's a myth to think that the more you put into it the more you will get out of it. Love and you shall be loved? Persistence never guarantees results, more often than not you reap those too-familiar seasons: the spring of fruitlessness, the summer of frustration, the autumn of fatigue, the winter of fragility.

Whoa man. Talk about seasons.

- pen.
by @ 8:43 PM