Friday, June 16, 2006

It's funny the things passion makes you do. When you force yourself to do things you hate to do, and half of it is because you want to punish yourself for hating it. Even when you're reeling from all of it, you make yourself go that bit further.. It makes you do stupid things too (or maybe that's just me). Sometimes it makes you want to laugh and cry at the same time, it makes you feel like jumping up and screaming at someone and hitting them. Sometimes you do it, sometimes you don't.
And when you think about the small things, you see the big picture, and there's not a single doubt in your mind that that is what you're working towards. And when you question yourself, it jumps back and bites you all over and grabs you and dares you to ask the question again. When you're walking in one direction, it forces you to turn about and walk the other way. I don't want to give up. I don't think I've ever given up on anything in this short span of time that I've lived here (only because I can't say 'all my life'). And I'm not just talking about softball. It's more than that.



HOWEVER, it wasn't passion that drove me to finish my New Deal essay! I did it after a lot of procrastination and I am glad that it's D-O-N-E. Plus, I watched Cry Freedom, and although it was very draggy (and I mean VERY - 2 and 1/2 hours) I thought it was not a bad movie with plenty of tense moments thrown in here and there! Thought they could have done a bit better in fleshing out the relationship between Donald Woods (editor) and Steve Biko (Black activist) though, instead of focusing on how Donald tried to get out of there. If I had to rate it, I'd probably give it 3 and 1/2 stars! Loved the courtroom sessions! Steve was so witty!

- Passion? Don't make me laugh.
by @ 4:50 PM