Thursday, April 20, 2006
| You Are 41% Selfish |
 You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it! |
(: Alright so I'm NOT as selfish as I think. I really can be at times though, when I really want something. Anyway, about today, I was discussing with my father about how if I were a coach, I would be consistent with my players. I think consistency is a must if you want to earn respect. Be unwavering in your principles but not narrow-minded to new ideas/opinions. I don't know, I think it would be really interesting to see what it would be like if I were a coach. Haha I wonder if my players would like me? HMMM. And I can't help but be frustrated at my dip in form. Yah, I KNOW my batting isn't top notch now, but that doesn't mean you have to say that I'm getting "Lousier and lousier". I can accept you saying it and WHY you say it, but I simply can't agree with you. I don't believe I'm getting lousier and lousier. With all due respect Coach, I respect you and your opinions but I can't agree with this one. I believe in impermanence, and that from past experience, I've come back from such dips in form even better. So, I'm not unduly worried, just going to work harder. (: Alright man Noelle! Get your act together!
Haha so many things going on now. NAPFA 5 items is tomorrow! (: So exciting! Want to get 30 points and more! I've got to stop thinking about distracting things. So distracting. And I've got a lot a lot of work to do, and although I'm not very very HAPPY now, I'll try to be! Haha I mean, I suppose I've got a lot to live for, and I shouldn't be bothered about such trivial matters.
You know, once when I was absent, Paul Tan told the class that although I looked quite tough on the outside, I'm actually not. When I heard about it I was quite indignant. Now I realise I was irritated not because what he said wasn't true, but because what he said WAS true. I'm not as strong inside as I would like to believe, and I don't know why people think I'm tough. HAHA SO FUNNY. Because beneath the gungho image, I'm like a younger, insecure version of myself. When I was younger I don't know if I was insecure? I guess I was because I hated to leave my mother at tumbletots or kindergarten (: And I bawled for the first few days then it was okay! It's hard to keep up with your own image and be consistent, but I'll try! I believe that even if you don't feel it in you, just FAKE it, then you'll start to believe too. (:
SHOUTOUT TO CHRISTINE: HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN ((: <3 ya!
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