Saturday, March 18, 2006
Today, I played badly, but it's not the end of the world! I'm only 15, and I've played for 2 years. Yes, I may have practiced a whole lot, but I get nervous! What happened today? I was too anxious to throw hard and not focusing enough, especially when there were balls that came to me that I should have caught but did not. What to do about it? If I ever do get to play there again (am doubtful, because Coach doesn't think I can do it. I can though. I've worked hard, I deserve it and I have equal rights! Pity he doesn't think that way. Oh well :S) The batting was not really up to par, especially for a number 3 batter! What are you doing man! Get your damn act together Noelle! Tomorrow, hopefully I'm playing. If I am, I'm probably going to play left field, which I'm fine with, and I don't know if my position in the batting order will still be the same, but honestly, it's not good to care too much. I don't care, it's not in my control! I can't control how Coach thinks or how other people think, but I can control myself and my attitude, and the pitches that I choose to hit. I can choose to play well, and I can choose to play badly, and I can choose to get angry at myself and angry at others and frustrated. But I won't do that. I'm going to remain calm and play my best no matter what my position fielding, batting and not complain or make excuses if I play badly(which I won't). And if I'm not playing, then I will cheer my teammates on or base coach! Besides, it will be a good opportunity to rest my ankle. To be completely honest, it still hurts when I sprint or move quickly, but it's nothing serious. Tomorrow, I am not going to let myself down, in terms of the way I think and how I perform! There are 19 people on that field, the first VIIII from each team and the umpire. At the end of the day, I want to be the person that people are happy with, and the person that I am trying my best to be.