Sunday, March 06, 2005

hihihi! haven't blogged in ages! shall blog today!

the last 2 times I tried to blog, I wrote out some nice long posts, and the computer purposely shut down. was trying to pay me back for the last time I spillled water on it. anyway, screw it. HAHA. I feel so full!!! even though I ate so much bread yesterday, I don't feel anything. I don't feel fatter. ok that's good but maybe I'm losing my FEELING. like, how I'm attuned to my body! I'm losing it! nooooo. haha. shall do some trg to improve proprioception, not because my proprioception is lousy, but it actually strengthens your core muscles! shit stop writing about conditioning! becoming obsessive! go away!

goal setting is good! I WILL DO IT TONIGHT. anyway yesterday coach was saying "you've got no confidence, you'll never go far!" and I didn't answer then he said "you understand??" then I had to say yes la, but of course I didn't mean it DUH. I mean you can't expect me to have confidence if you keep putting me down what. so anyways. since my batting slump he hasn't had anything good to say about my performance but it doesn't matter, because I know I've got the potential. don't convince me otherwise, or it'll come back and bite you, I promise you it will. haha. after that when he gave fielding it wasn't so bad.

been aching so much! my abs! but I can feel this new muscle I've nv felt before coming out. haha weird! and my delts and my triceps! there's more definition. shhhh stop! wait I won't talk about it anymore. WILL NOT. my muscles are not that important! stop!! STOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOP!















ok. shall think of something to write. tomorrow is lifeskills camp day 1! hope it's good. wish we were going for the hike sooner though... shall go see what time it starts and shall go running in the morning before it! haha. or up and down stairs one if it's possible. I'm not cynical really! sometimes I just act cynical! you know! it's making fun of cynicism! like being overly cynical to be cynical about being cynical! get me. maybe not. but I believe there's love in this world! <3 ohman so act cute hahah. I'm an idealistic optimist lalala. haha hmm wait. something's wrong with that. ignore it.

I won't use the word fuck in my blog ever again. won't condone it. nope. but I'm not saying you shouldn't. do whatever you like! I'm not bothered by it, but I don't believe it adds any spice/witticism to my writing. it's like having an extra nose or something. it's not exactly aesthetically pleasing and it's going to have different feedback from the other nose to confuse you. haha. so go ahead! use it as liberally as you like! it can be a noun, adverb or adjective! I mean, it might look very yummily versatile, but in the end, it's a word like "nice". doesn't really mean anything, and no one really knows what you mean when you say it.

- projectile vomit
by @ 8:09 PM