Tuesday, November 16, 2004
heyheyhey. I've been having blog withdrawal. it gets to you after a while. even though I never particularly enjoyed blogging. T_T but it's like smoking. I think.
I don't wanna be obsessed with softball. it's ruining my social life. kind of. I don't have time for a lot of things. hmmm. no anecdotes. I need some excitement!! god I REALLYREALLYREALLY wanna get into that capoeira class but I have no idea what "grade" means on the form, plus my parents probably wouldn't allow. thereyougo.
today was training! funfunfun! did lots of grounders and umm. well basically that's about it. doing grounders the whole day. aside from bunting. then we played football! I hate to call it soccer. I'm not used to it and plus it's so americanised. not that I'm anti-american or anything, it's just that america HAS to take everything and try to make it it's own. for example, look how they spell their words differently. look at how they tried to restructure the iraqi government in a month. god sometimes it just makes me wanna take them by the throat and make them vomit out what's not theirs. anyway I digress. ok so I didn't get the drink[s?] for siqi. will get them next week promise. haha.
right. gotta stop being pretentious. haha reminds me! I took this test thing and it says I'm an enfp! yay. and it's classified under CHAMPION. I'm only about 3.8% of the population! ok not making any sense. I MEAN my type [enfp which is basically extroverted iNtuitive feeling perceiving whatever the hell that is] is only found in 3.8% of the entire population, the usa or otherwise. and I don't understand why on CDs they have to say for sale in the USA and countries outside the USA . like THEYRE NOT THE CENTRE OF THE WORLD HULLOOO. ok stop antiuspropaganda.stopstopstop. ok then I'm supposed to berate my self for any self-conscious role-playing because supposedly I'm true to myself or I try to be. ummm. ok. STOP ROLE PLAYING NOELLE YOU IDIOT!! IT'S LIKE I DON'T EVEN KNOW ME ANYMORE!!!! hahahaha. ok scolded myself liao. hahaha.
my mother loves my sister more than me and somehow, it doesn't really disturb me hmmm. maybe I'm getting desensitised or something. am I really sensitive? am I? actually I think I can be sensitive to what I want to be sensitive to. haha SELECTIVE SENSITIVITY. and I'mm a closet romantic! I AM REALLY. I MEAN I look grufftuff all that shit but I'm not really! I'm a sucker for romcoms and hindi-cry-a-lot-movies. but if it's something silly [eg. the champion fiona xie rachel lee jeannette aw (YI JIAO TA LIANG CHUAN!!! incorrigible I tell you) and the qi yuwu and the other ugly guy and loads of ugly people like toro.] it not only has stupid paradoxical romances which involve 3 or more parties, it's actors are DEADUGLY. READ MY LIPS. dead as a duck and just about as ugly. but why am I saying this anyway. I was talking about it just now. haha COACH WATCHES IT!! HAHA READS THE SUBTITLES!!! he likes jamie yeo and fiona but hates rachel lee!! HAHAHA. funny.
I wish I'd listened to goodbye again [by vert. horizon for those who want to know what it sounds like] more often! I think I only listened once or twice when I first downloaded it and I think I really liked it. haha. but tragically I don't keep track of the songs I like, so this one is unearthed after a loooooong time. ^^ I love more than words too! originally by extreme but I have the westlife version. I wanna learn how to play it!!!!!!
wish I could write songs. haha I mean I GUESS I could if I tried and learned more chords or something. but I'm struggling with theory now. cos I'm self-taught so I have no teacher ))): sad!
I didn't stetch. my hams are gonna be in trouble. last time I went to st theresa for extra trg then DIDN'T STRETCH AND THEN walked the whole of lentor residence in the rain without an umbrella looking for fong's house, my hamstrings were screaming bloody murder. ok not that bad, maybe just a niggle, but you know all that expansion and contraction. haha.
I really am happy. my facial muscles are developing from smiling. so now I have a muscular face ! [?] I love my life. and don't wanna to die now. haha I don't really HAVE a lot of angst. bare minimum. in fact, when you think about all those starving dying children out there with terminal illnesses or those slaves and oppressed peopleeeees. there's nothing to be sad about. (((: so SMILE! haha.
I guess I don't know what's left to say
Hear me out
All of the dreams of yesterday
Keep breaking me down
ok that was s00000per angsty. haha.
- randomness hello first post!
by @ 9:33 PM